Certainly not me.

I tried to warn you,

I tried to tell you

Now do you understand?

I smoke too much, I drink too much, I take far too many drugs.

I say too much, I regret too much, I'm impatient far too often.

I learn too much, I yearn for too much, I work far too many hours.

I cry too much, I fuck too much, I want far too much for the future.

I wake in the middle of night, silently cry.

Forever down to run out or 

always be by your side.

There are days I can’t leave a room,

others I'm too far gone to care,

some the entire world’s mine to adventure.

I argue;

I desire for more than most

can give.

I curse too much, I guarantee too much, I think far too little of myself.

I pry too much, I party too much, I give far too much to others

I think too much, I dream too much, I have far too complicated of a past.

I hide too much, I hope too much, I have become far too astray.

I never open my soul completely and I am almost never okay.

I can mold our souls in my heart but 

I will still remember every lie.

You did not believe 

Or listen

Or care.

I tried to warn you,

I am Murphy's Law 

Entropy confined.

I write too much, I consume too much, I give far too little fucks.

I sleep too much, I disappear too much, I ask far too many questions.

I understand too much, I have seen too much, I miss far too many details.

I decide too much, I let my eyes wander too much, I am far too fucking much for you.

Nothing will ever be

perfect

my dear,

Certainly Not Me.

----Tessa,