Gone

The last time I saw her, 

I didn't realize it would be our last encounter.

It's been a year since the angels took her to heaven,

Yet my mind is still so full of regret.

I can't make sense of why this happened. 

Our. Family. Is. Broken.

Forever changed by tragedy.

There is nothing anyone can say or do.

The pain, the anguish, the broken heart, does it ever stop?

What was meant to be a day of celebration is now a day of mourning and sorrow.

I'll never be able look at an evergreen the same way again.

All because of the reckless actions of a disturbed man.

I want to hate him but God tells me to forgive.

Forgive a monster? There's no justice here. 

70 years-to-life just isn't enough to replace the life you took from Earth.

I hate myself for blaming you. 

But it wasn't her time to go.

Bring her back to us right now.

Just tell me that none of this is so.