I’m Afraid That Tomorrow Is Just Too Far Away.

I remember you begging me not to do it, promising how things would be okay. You told me to think about my brother, who depends on me, my family and my friends. You asked me why would I want to do something so selfish. You made me promise, as you cleaned up the blood and began to wrap my wounds, to not do it. Seeing the hurt and desperation in your eyes, I agreed. But things have changed. My heart is broken, there's a constant war raging within my own head, my soul has grown numb, and you're not here. You left me here, all alone, in this hell of a nightmare. You're in Heaven, so why can't I join you? I want peace, too. So with these colorful, magical pills and this blade, I will soon see you in Heaven. Make sure to save me a seat, now.