My Inner Conundrum

Sure, I get that the phrase, "turn the other cheek," has good intentions behind it. Same as, "do unto others what you would have them do unto you." 

Both of these are wonderful ideas.

But how are we as individuals supposed to live up to those when, as a general whole, society doesn't?

I can turn the other cheek every fucking day, but, where will that get me? What will be the result?

These days... a tear-stained face and two, red, stinging cheeks.

I can do unto others what I want them to do to me every fucking day as well but, all it will get me is into trouble.

Financial trouble, emotional trouble, physical trouble... Any number of troubles.

Because no one gives that same courtesy in return.

In this world, being kind gets you walked over and, basically, abused.

Society will rape you until you are nothing but a husk, a shell, an empty flesh with no sense of identity, no means of survival and completely alone. 

It will give you fake friends, false pretenses and lies. 

And I am fucking over it.

It's every fucking man for themselves and I don't want to live in a world like that. 

We weren't meant to be this way.

We can't survive this way.

I realise that by asking where these actions lead me or what they get me is paradoxical to the meaning and intention behind the phrase.

It isn't supposed to be about me.

The fact that I am even questioning these phrases fills me with guilt!

I want to help people.

I know what it is like to feel helpless, alone, lost, afraid and hopeless.

But how far am I supposed to go?

How do I do this and still retain my own self-preservation?

Therein, lies the conundrum...