natsukashi; nostalgic
maybe i was wrong
to overthink
what you meant
what we
meant.
when you would sit alone
blinded in the
white light of the
convenience store
let me tell you
that
i loved you
and you
loved me
when you would close your eyes
and stare into the abyss of
black
did you think
of me
because i thought of you.
what ever happened to lying under starry nights,
grasping for what wasn't there
smiling together for the first time in weeks
because the night was
special
and us?
special
the grass dancing in the brisk wind
lightly caressing our warm bodies
pressed
to the ground
pushed down
together
when you looked over
the ancient wood in your
eyes
that gleamed in the dark
and made the world seem
even the smallest bit
lighter
you would pretend
and dont get me wrong, i would too
that we didnt notice our hands
slowly
grasping each other
fingers intertwined, tightening, sweating
sweat that poured from our bodies
souls
hearts
combined and shut closed
stuck in our palms, mixed
with the blood and
tears of the past
when we
were not one together, combined
but two
a seperate two, distant
when all we felt was empty
and desire
for destruction and death
but together
as i watch you sit at your desk in the orange sunlight
waiting for the final ring of
the bell
with the small piece of paper next to me
that was bursting so much
you couldn't bare to wait any longer
until the bell did ring
and when i opened
its scented folds
i knew
i loved you
but that
was old
and a new was waiting
around the corner
for we weren't in highschool forever
and eventually
our short lived love
would slowly
sink
to the bottom of the muddy river
its ink spread
scattered
and your hand
grasping its aged paper
shattering at the simple touch of your
warm fingers
once in my embrace
now burnt cold
and gone
dead, numb
your skin growing paler by the minute
and your love
faded
gone
ha
how nostalgic