My Humanity

My mom, my sister, my ex, my rent

Insurance, the drugs, my dad, the feds

All of this kept my ass on meds

And all I wanna do is maybe bow some heads

But that'll take time. I might as well write some rhymes

Put em in my lines and claim them mine

My mind can see the breaking line

Its not fine when all I do is waste some time

So fuck what you been tellin' me

I wanna show you who Dylan be

A maniac with a plan, and a bottle of gin

Man I hope that you be hearin' me

Man I hope that you be fearin' me

Cause when I put my head in the right space, the light fades

The night takes the dark shades til the day breaks

And looks me deep in my eyes

And shows me the lies

Shows me all of the cries

And lets me see my future when im deep in my prime

All rest aside I can hear my name in the dark

Like demons calling me towards the devilish park

Realize all this shit is deep in my heart

Like is Heaven for real, or is it just a government mark?

I cant decide, all of these problems alive

Somedays I wanna lay back and wish that I died

Something deep inside has got me feelin' the tide

Like we're just human, all perfections aside

And is that what I am, another flaw on the Earth?

Wait 36 years and be buried in dirt?

Like I changed nothing from this world with hurt?

Am I just a speck on the picture at work?