Still Here

Is it my fault?

Did I get so blissfully drunk

On your smiles

That you thought you had to hide

When the darkness rolled in?

It's true I am addicted

To your happiness

Your hearts and giggles

You beautiful boy

But maybe I haven't told you enough

That I want you just as much

And need you even more

When you hate the world

And it hates you

And you feel like you want to leave?

It's not your job to feed me sunshine

Make me happy

Or protect me from worry

I hope you know

When I tell you I love you

To the moon and back

It means I embrace every part

Not just the cute and cuddly

The warm and the sweet

But also the dark and the scary

The dangerous bits

That threaten to take you to places

Where I can't follow

I almost lost you

And I didn't even know it

Shouldn't I have seen

The signs?

My world was almost

Ripped out from under me

My heart almost torn out

By the roots

I am paralyzed

Blind

I've been too in love

With your joy

And maybe you didn't want to

Burden me

When the stormclouds pressed down

On your tired shoulders

But you don't need to worry

Because all I want

Is you

It doesn't need to be

All cake and rainbows

You can share the dark and gloom

And we'll ride it out

Together

Because it's all you

It's true

And it's real

Maybe I should just shut up

Because it's not about me

Your struggle belongs to you

And no one else

I just need you to know

The world is better

With you in it

Endlessly lovelier

And that my heart has grown

In the shape of you

That you're beautiful

Always

And I know how it feels

To be in that cold place

Numb and so alone

But you're not alone

Not ever

I'll be here waiting for you

If you want me

I'll be here

To the ends of the universe