Fathom

You had a hard life, had two kids

your husband has another wife.

I had a great life

lived behind locked doors

no parents in sight

Didnt think that it was hard

to drown in alchohol

but I dont think that if I were drunk

I'd lose some control since

I've lived a life worth a loaded die

I cant get the one, always lands on 5

5 mistakes they made me done my time

One, hadnt had a pick me up

given up on giving up but im

sick of all the shit ive just been breathing

my life is just too toxic, but I keep on living

Two, I've had enough

thought of hanging from above

to leave a note, send it to no one I love

cause no one had even loved me back.

Three I just wish i'd gone

hadnt had a coffee, but I cant sleep till dawn

my eyes are wide open, staring at

the corner of my room, where a twelve meter

death of me is curled up across the room

Four, Ive been here before

all these thoughts banging on the door

of my head, wish i'd gone, wish I stayed

wish I was lying, wish i'd be dead but

Five, Im too petrified of being left behind