Lessons for my younger self

I am happiest when I’m alone

I need those 25 minutes of peace on my daily commute where I’m completely enveloped in what music I’m listening to,

whilst daydreaming about all the things,

I never had the courage to say or do

I’m happiest when I’m alone,

And not strung out on your love

Waiting for the phone

to ring

There’s things I should’ve known

like when you turn a lover into a home,

One spark,

Can be the guilty flame that smokes you out.

I’m happier now when I’m alone

and I’m curled up in bed

With no sign of your notes or the polaroids we took on beaches and boats. My tides are high and the weather is changing, I’m the captain and I hold my own rope

I am happy.

To be alone,

In a world so full of opportunity

No longer gazing in the mirror of scrutiny,

Knowing that the words “I am enough” can spark change, create unity,

and if someone were to describe you to me,

After all these years,

I’d want you to be happy too, with me.