Unrequited

Stumbling laughter

as alcohol no longer burns,

tickling down throat.

Dancing abandon

beneath the blacklights

and the swarming glow.

I, who am so

reserved, quiet,

safe.

Unnerving nerve,

secreted desire

driving for once.

Observing him,

approaching him,

kissing him.

Horrifying repulse,

shoved away,

alone.

Oh

you poor

undesired

thing.