She Looks for You

Wolf walked through the door, his body tense for a fight. He could smell the fire and the ash, his Angel had a bad day for it to be this strong. As he walked further into the house, his senses were assaulted with the salty sent of tears and the sense of hopelessness and frustration that normally pleased him, left an emptiness in him that broke his soul. His Angel was suffering.

That thought made him angry for a moment, but it disipated when he finally found her. She was sitting with her back against the bedroom door, her knees pulled up to her chest and her head buried in her arms. He heard her sniffles and watched as she looked up at him, tears still flowing from her silver eyes.

"I'm a horrible mother." She whispered in a broken voice, obviously strained from her weeping and begging.

Wolf knelt down, "Don't say stupid things, Angel. You're an amazing mother. Our little Siren adores you."

Angel shook her head, "No, you don't understand. It only happens when you're not here. She rejects me. My daughter rejects me and I know its because of what I am; who I am." A new sob tore through her and she wiped her tears away, "Part of me rejects her, but I love her so much. She's my everything, Wolf. I-I don't know what to do!"

Wolf pulled her into his arms as Angel disolved into a new set of tears. He hated when she cried. It meant she was hurting and all he wanted to do was set her world right so she could be his happy Angel; but there was no fixing this. He knew that Angel and Siren suffered when they were left alone together. His lover's power made her a danger to their daughter, and the parts of his daughter that were him, Hell-borne and unworthy, recognized Angel for the danger she was.

A loud cry came from the room behind them, and Wolf looked wistfully at the door. Their daughter was singing her siren song, and he knew his Angel would put her suffering aside to answer the call. As he predicted, his lover pulled herself from his hold and wiped her eyes, all signs of her pain gone, and she stood and entered the room.

"Hello my Little Bird." Wolf watched from the doorway as Angel cooed at their daughter and picked her up. She was beautiful every second of the day from the moment she was created, a smile deserved to be on her face all the time because she was a God-send. And he'd hurt her too many times before to not want to make up for it. As he watched her hold their child, he realized that he'd inadvertently hurt her again. It was his fault their daughter couldn't stand Angel when he was gone. It was his blood that ruined everything.

His Siren was smiling up at her mother with wide eyes and little giggles. Wolf looked at his Angel curiously when a wave of her sadness washed over him. She was smiling, but it wasn't reaching her eyes. "Angel?"

"I'm happy to be able to hold her again, to end her crying and her pain, Wolf, but....mine still exists. Even now, I'm so happy to have her in my arms again, but the moment you're gone....she won't want me anymore." She turned to him, and Wolf froze at the desperate look in her eyes.

Nothing good ever happened when she had that look in her eyes.

"What are you thinking, Angel?" He asked, his voice was lower than normal as he prepared himself for whatever awful idea she was about to suggest.

"I love her so much."

"I know you do. You love her more than anything. I see the way you look at her. She's the light of your life." Wolf remarked.

Angel nodded, "Then you know...., tears began to fall from her eyes again as she approached him and offered him their now silent child, "You know this breaks my heart."

Wolf took Siren, but the smile he normally recived from her, he didn't get. Her silver and green eyes were focused on her mother. "Angel, what are you doing?"

The woman gave him a bittersweet smile as she pressed a kiss to her daughter's head, and finally she looked at him. He saw the answer in her eyes, and before his Angel, Wolf never thought he'd fall apart the way he found himself in that moment.

"I hurt her. You don't. She adores you most of all. I've always loved that, but, she can't stand me when you're not here. I hurt her and she hurts me. I'm weak, Wolf. I can't keep doing this, listening to her cry and scream because of my presence. I hear the Fire within me make demands I can never follow. She's in danger with me, and she knows it." He saw her heart break in her eyes, a look he'd caused once, and vowed never to do again.

"Angel-"

She silenced him with a kiss, it was full of love and sorrow and good-bye. Then she was gone.

Wolf felt her absence, and when his daughter began to cry, he knew that she felt it too. These were here normal cries though. He was never around when Siren threw a real tantrum, with power in her voice that shook the whole house. Others had witnessed the effects of Siren's terrified screams when she was alone with Angel, the way they both suffered without his presence. The tears his daughter cried now, hurt his soul in a way Hell never could; she knew her mother was gone.

He rocked her gently and began speaking to her. "Your mother loves you very much. More than anything else in this world. You and I broke her heart, my Siren." His daughter hiccuped and looked at him with water eyes; her mother's eyes. "It wasn't your fault, Little Bird." The nickname Angel gave Siren sounded odd coming from him, but he saw how it soothed the child. "She's your guardian angel, Siren, don't ever forget that. Angel and I would tear the world asunder for you. Always remember that Angel did this because she loves you so much. She would rather suffer alone than risk you. She's stubborn that way." He paused and saw that Siren had stopped crying, she was looking around the room for her mother.

'Angel, I wish you knew how much our daughter loves you. When you're not here she looks for you.'