Dear John/Jack,

I do not remember you as much as I wish I do. It was a long time ago. Maybe 3 or 4 summers ago? You really confuse me. Was it just an overreation of my 12 or 11 year old imagination? Do you remember me? I am sorry for these questions. I just need to know. I still remember that day when we sailed alone and I learned how to fly a spinaker. It was fun and I miss you. I do not understand why. Why do I miss you? There could never be a we, in fact, I scold myself everytime this pops into my head. But that does not stop it from doing so. I cannot decide if it was your personality, looks, actions, or attitude. Maybe it was just you in general, your perfect smile, hair, eyes. I am sorry. This is weird. I do not even know you that well and my mind likes to play tricks. Remember when I saw you at the fancy dinner when I got an award? Probably not. But I was there and I noticed you. We made eye contact and it almost killed me. I did not even know I was getting an award. If you remember this night did you see how nervous I was when I received my award? I was shaking and hoped I did not hold it upside down for the picture. You were the main reason I was so nervous. I should not have been so worried and shocked. I should not have any feelings toward you. But yet I do. Why? I do not know. I do know that I miss you and would like to see you again even just to say a proper goodbye. I was sad when you did not show up the next summer, and I felt worse when I realized you never said goodbye. I know you did not need to and that there was no reason to, but I still felt a little empty and broken. I think I am getting over you, maybe some closure will help. You confuse me so much, and for no reason. I hope you are doing well and are happy. That is all I want. Your happiness and others happiness. I am so sorry. Goodbye.