Paralyzed

You're caged up in your own mind. Fear has become the chains that confine you. Self-hatred has become the knives that cut you.

You believe that you're nothing more than a burden to your parents. You feel like they've wasted so much money on you when they could've spent it on better things for themselves.

They have their family and friends to support them. The same goes for your friends. So what do they need you for? They could make it without you. They'd be better off without you.

These thoughts come in a continous stream that all tie together into this thick noose that drapes over your neck. You wonder how it would feel to suffocate, to go blue-in-the-face, as they say. But you don't pull the lever to fall. Instead, you stand there afraid to die yet you're also afraid to live.

Where does that leave you then?