Maybe I just need some closure or something

Have you ever gone back and reread old messages until your veins were soaked in forgotten promises and your heart was full of tears?

Last night I saw you kiss some girl and she looked like me but you looked like you and it was so weird because I remember you saying you hated the way my hair was brown but I guess you didn’t mind with that girl as long as you got to grab her thigh.

I got drunk the other day and I cried til I threw up and the only thing that came out was your phone number over and over and that’s why I called you. I was gonna leave a nice message but you’re actually a jerk and you wouldn’t have deserved it.

I miss you so much it’s intoxicating because the only alcohol I get into my system gets my brain thinking about you and it hurts, okay? It hurts like hell.

You never deserved me but I sure do deserve this pain.