Too Much...

Too much

That’s me summed up in two words

Too much

I care too much

I stress too much

I love too much

I forgive too much

I think too much

I say too much

I feel too much

I give too much

I’m just too much

I’m too much to understand

I’m just too complex

Am I supposed to apologise

For something I can’t control?

This is who I am

It’s always been me

Should I say I’m sorry

Because I cannot change?

Sometimes i wish I could

Because being too much hurts

I get used, abused

Taken for granted

Broken

Shattered

Decimated

While all they do is watch

Why the fuck was I made this way?

I ask this every day

Can’t I just not give a shit?

Can’t I drown in apathy?

Oh please let me drown

Into the depths of ignorance

Bury me in naivety

And save me from myself

©️Chanelle Joy

16/4/18