Until

Sometimes I leave a bit early

Just to sit in the car

A little bit longer

Just to stand in the cold

In the peace and quiet

Until the numbness takes over

And my outsides match what's within

Sometimes I'd rather stare at a wall

Over doing something

Over doing anything

Like a robot, frozen in action

Absent-minded restlessness

Until something jolts me back into consciousness

And my mind floods with counterproductiveness

Sometimes I'll laugh

It'll seem I'm enjoying it

but in reality

in the back of my mind

The thoughts aren't very humorous

Until the laughter breaks

And the thoughts rush to the front

Sometimes I'll smile

But I'll never really mean it

Until...