Lies

I like to forget all that’s going on around me

I like to pretend that the world isn’t evil

I like to live in my mind

In my mind, I am brave

In my mind, I can talk to anyone

In my mind, no one is mean

In my mind, good people always win

I like to get attached to people

I like to see someone everyday

I like to know there are people who care

The world likes to play games with me

The world feeds off how easily I am hurt

The world doesn’t care how worthless I feel because of it

Someday, it will all be better

Someday, I will know who really cares

Someday, I won’t have to worry about how uncertain my future seems

I like to lie to myself

I like to convince myself that nothing's as bad as it seems

I like to tell myself that my problems aren’t real

I tear myself down a lot

And the only way I get back up

Is by convincing myself of things that just aren’t true

Yes, it’s possible things will get better

No, it is not a guarantee

I may never find out who the people are who really care

There will most likely always be someone who only cares about me

When it benefits them

It’s sad that I can’t become close to anyone

Without having a legitimate fear of them turning their back on me

I hate change

I hate seeing people I loved leave

But it’s part of life

Lying to myself won’t make it go away

It will only hurt me more in the long run