I.
skin clings to bone
mind stick thought and toxins
of pills and tears and bloody razors
face now ranges of snowy fear and dead men once
loved by young and old
many dead across lumps and bumps and deteriorating flesh
broken love and souls
her face in minds now gone distant
far from reach from her warm
gentle embrace
-11 lbs. later
thinner days come with fatter nights
clenching to phones and numbers
bathroom doors and wrists
memories of times and loves flushed in the toilet
and minds full of closed off darkness
please conceal
i beg of you
no one can save now
death is imminent and accepted
never will experience ever lead to hands un-held
lips untouched and intelligence unlearnt
selfish are actions that cause pain and fear
grasping to thick thighs of hers and mine
deceased bodies laying untouched
beams of hope
shutters closed
i look now unto her
cheek touch cheek
bone touch regret
perhaps it's too late to go back
to unheard nights
and glasses full of daisies
and cigarettes by moonlight
eyelids now shut
black like nights
i see stars of your presence in distances beyond
i grasp
i don't grab
goodbye.