It’s All My Fault

It hurts that I'll never get to tell you the truth

I'll never get to tell you how much you mean to me

Or how much she hurt me

Or all that is going on in my life

It hurt that I had to keep secrets from you

It's not that I didn't trust you

I just didn't want you to get hurt

I couldn't bear to see as broken as I am every day

So I left

I didn't say goodbye

I know you don't understand

You never will if all goes as planned

But I promise all the hurt you're feeling now

Is nothing compared to what would have happened

If I had stayed

You will never know

That everything I ever did

Was to protect you

I know you're strong

But I wouldn't want to place the burden of my pain

On anyone

Especially you

I love you more than anyone else ever will

I gave up everything for you

But you'll never know

I destroyed myself to ensure your safety

But you'll never know

We all make mistakes

But mine are irreversible

And now, my greatest punishment

Is the promise

I will never get to look into your eyes

And tell you how sorry I am

So, you will hate me forever

And I deserve it