Letter to my abuser

You follow me

You swallow me

You made me think

I wanted you

You made me think

It takes two

You’re in my nightmares

You can live

And it’s not fair

You touched me

Now I don’t have a face

You touched me

And I left without a trace

You touched me

Now home is not a place

I wanted you

Because you made me feel

Like nothing

And you were something

You touched me

And suddenly I wasn’t a person

Come and get me if I scream

Suddenly I don’t have a body

And nobody could ever want me

Because you told me so

And you say

That you don’t know

You make me think I’m lying

You make me cry without trying

And all I wanna know

Is how you

Don’t.

#poetry #PTSD #abuse #pain