sleep
disconnect
and a body distant
those who i care for so much
nothing in a distance of dust and fog
minds absent
does my body have a soul?
am i just nothing?
is something wrong with me?
why do i feel this way?
i can’t feel today
the joy of friends and fun
a distant memory in the present
so close yet so far from reach
a flashback of life...
i guess i could describe it like that?
a feeling of being dead
a feeling of nothing
no feeling
just absence
and sadness
a dark looming cloud over life
following every step
i wonder
will i ever be free?
why do i feel this way
cold
and bitter
thoughts overbearing reality
i want to go back to sleep.
i want to wake from this constant dream
or perhaps nightmare?
am i even here
do i even feel
do i even exist
i miss life
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(forgive for dodgy write - it’s like 2am lol~~i was in a weird mood and felt like writing and uploading some stuff ://)