If I stay

If I stay

For just a while

Do you swear

That time will hold still

Because I have been tempted

By ten million sins

And I have tasted the blood that fell off of my own arm

Once or twice in solitude

And once or twice beside her

If I stay

For another year

How many times will I wonder

What nothingness looks like

Or what it feels like

To inflict nothingness

On the heart I own

Before

The heart I am