13 Reasons Why I Hate “MAPS”

Today I am wearing

A tired scowl on my face

And a battered heart on my sleeve.

One long day

In a storm of willful ignorance

And here I am.

Two hours of explaining myself

To people who don't listen

To inconvenient truths.

Three comments

Of tone policing

And false progression.

Four years of fighting

For autonomy from a

Controlling mother - dead or alive.

Five years agonizing

Over a scumbag

From my past's release.

Six years of abuse

Thrown in my face

By a false movement.

Seven other victims around me

Feeling the same...but knowing

There are countless more of us.

Eight paragraphs about the issue;

Questionable (at best) "reasons"

Behind excusing this "movement".

Nine times I have to hear

About the immorality of the LGBT

And non-members' assumptions.

Ten years of gaslighting;

Sweeping my attempts at healing

Under the rug for convenience.

Eleven times to ask for help,

Only to be barred

From facing my demons head-on.

Twelve years old, being slut shamed

For my figure; slut shaming myself

Because that's what he made me feel like.

Thirteen years he'll be in jail -

A lifetime that I'll deal

With his actions.

Thirteen reasons why

I am disgusted by the idea

Of "MAPs" normalizing their shit desires.