A Lump in My Throat

There's nothing more painful than watching someone you love suffer. What can you do

to make it better ? You stand there looking at your loved one in that hospital bed. You try to put up a brave front. After all, one needs to be careful about letting emotions of

sadness and frustration come out in front of the loved one. Your loved one has enough

on his or her mind. Hold back those tears. Excuse yourself momentarily if you must so you can wipe your eyes and pull yourself together.

You start to remember times when your loved one was up and alive and happy. It's good

to have those memories. They may be the very thing that holds you together if the outcome does not end well.

The dear one who lay there suffering is an important person in your life. More than anything you want that relationship again. You are not ready to see it fade away. So, you

stay there, and try to give a reassuring smile, a soft touch to brush a stray hair out of their eyes and a gentle kiss on the forehead. You say softly, " I love you" while you are silently

saying a prayer. When you leave the bedside and go out of the room the pain is allowed

to surface with full force. This is not going to be easy.