Dear Lindsay,

Hey, I’m sorry I’ve been so distant lately. I know you need me I just don’t know if I can help you when I can’t really seem to figure it out myself. I’m fucking stuck. And you keep putting all of your problems on me and god i wish I could do something to make it better but you’ve got rot in your bones and I’ve got dirt in mine. We’re both fucked. Avalyn isn’t here anymore either. She went away. They all went away. I saw this thing die in the road the other day and it broke my heart. I feel too much. I know you do too and that’s where we are the same, but we handle things with two different perspectives. You ask for help, you hint toward wanting it. I just let it eat at me until I’m bitter. I’m sorry Lindsay. There’s nothing I can do to help you. We both know you’ll be okay eventually. Give it time. That’s what you always told me.

Stay okay. At least try. -Ellie