What I’ve Never Had

I've never had someone to look up to. To see as a role model, someone who I can always count on. The empty space in my childhood is my adversary. I've always been alone, a lost child. I never knew what it was like to have someone be proud of me. I want to fill that empty space. I want to push myself. So whether my adversary is me, or that empty place, I am unsure.