Hanging in there.

In homage to my misery and thinking that it will erase the pain I tried the cliché things in life. I tried to drink alcohol and party all night to forget about what I had recently lost, love, and smoke my head off. People try their hardest to turn to things that will make it all better but in reality you aren't turning to anything.

In being drunk and being high I learnt that it isn't going to make life easier. If I lean on alcohol I will become a binge bawling alcoholic who can't function and will stink (disapproving).

I could go roll the fattest blunt on Earth and think that I am going to be okay but this will only lead me to being a crack head if I grow a dependency.

Truth be told, I probably would've had more fun if I wasn't using them for the wrong purpose. Now, my lesson to everyone else is simply this, don't do what I did. All you need to do is simply know that time will heal all things. To answer your question, no, I'm not doing okay, I'm hanging in there.