While I’m Still Alive

I can't keep reiterating the same thing,

Over and over and over again.

Don't ever take things for granted,

Just because I'm still in this world.

My heart can only thump for so long,

And while it still supports my body,

I'm doing my absolute best,

To preserve a blissful future for you.

So stop spending the money so recklessly,

On foolish and unnecessary stuff.

You've already got a luxurious life,

That can rival even Kylie Jenner's.

It's fine if you don't appreciate my help,

But I'll keep earning the bucks for your sake,

Though when times become a little tough,

Your spending spree will have to be restrained.

Even though you've stepped into your twenties,

Maturity is a path you still have yet to traverse.

I forgive that and your hate for me but please,

Please stop cursing me to death all the time.

At first I didn't mind your spiteful words,

But the loathing in your eyes is unmistakable.

My heart begins to hurt with every beat,

And I hold in my tears every time we interact.

It might take years, decades or maybe never,

Before you come to understand my love,

Treat me fondly as the big reliable sister,

Remember my suffering and sacrifice for you.

I can only hope you'll forget your unkind words,

And grieve over my corpse when my soul is gone.

But if your stance remains the same till then,

Who is a dead sibling to judge?