Renewal

My death means an end to

laughter

caresses

charm

hope

I’m already imploding from the wish of what we could be together

I may as well toss myself into a well, drown

Like a coin spent on a shared dream

I’m coming for you. (Wait for me.)

I’m burning this old life down. (Let’s build a new one together.)

I’ll miss me. (But I would miss “us” more.)

I’m killing my “self”. (I hate “me” but I love you and “us”.)

Do not cry at my grave

It’s our altar now

Me, in beggar’s clothes

You, resplendent in black and red

There will be no white at our wedding, our pairing

Just the golden patina of hope