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Silence.

The TV is glowing a pale blue, I wish it wouldn't do that

My ears are ringing, I wish they wouldn't do that

My heart is beating really fast, I wish it wouldn't do that

They'll just give me more pills if I tell them so I don't

I used to know why things happened but I don't know anything anymore except that the TV wont stop and it won't let me think and it's telling me to leave my room and it's telling me to be afraid of it and it's telling me it's lying and it's laughing at me.

I think I've been standing here forever and I think I don't exist.

I have no one to talk to I have no one to talk to and the TV reminds me every day that I have no one to talk to and I can't sleep I dont think I ever have and I can't tell if I'm sleeping and I don't think I ever have and the eyes keep looking at me and I don't know who they belong to and I can't move and I can't move and I can't move.

I can remember something like being a kid and running and playing and I can remember something like having friends and dreams and I can remember something like having a normal fucking TV and I can remember something like I'm supposed to take my pills and I can remember something like wanting to drive my car off a bridge and I think that's why they put me here.

my friends stopped visiting and my family doesnt care and I don't know how old I am and the TV tells me that I'm not real so I don't even know if I exist and I don't know how old I am and I don't know my name and I don't know anything why the fuck isnt my brain working and I don't even know where I am and I can't even think anything and all I can hear is that ringing sound and I think its coming from the TV and they said it isnt but I'm positive and I asked for a new one and the TV told me not to ask anymore so I dont because I need someone to talk to me and I need someone to talk to me and I need someone.

I can feel water on my feet and its getting higher and its making me colder and I can feel water in my head and its making it heavy and I can't keep it up and I can feel something in my ear telling me its listening to my thoughts and I have to get it out so I need to get a knife and I can't find one and nothing I have in here will work and its starting to hurt now and I think the water is going to drown me because i'm floating in it and the TV is laughing so loud that its hurting my head but I cant speak and I cant speak that shit they gave me makes my mouth stop working and I cant scream and I can't scream.

I don't want to be here anymore.