I’m sad.

I’m sad all the time. I get drunk only to realize how ugly I am in looks and also personality. I wake up everyday unhappy with who i am and also sad at how no one makes friends with me and the only people that do... are fake and talk behind my back. I know that I’m ugly but that still doesn’t change my sadness and realization that i haven’t ever been asked out or been one of those girls hat has their first kiss at 14. I should be having fun and going to parties but I never get invited. People just don’t like me and as I try to have self confidence in myself, I’m secretly dying every day because of how alone I feel.