We loved each other in different ways

Remember when you said I was pretty?

I tried to tell you I was a monster with jealousy & anger issues

But you laughed

But I meant it

You were always good at laughing.

Remember when you said you loved me and begged me to give you a chance because you had a dream we got married

But I don't believe in marriage.

But you were always good at ignoring the things I said.

Remember when I called you in the early hours of the morning interrupting your sleep but you’d answer anyway

And you'd put on your socks and got your keys to make sure I was okay but I never was.

You were always good at jokes and bad at saying no to me.

Remember you dated that girl for a year and a half?

Our friendship was diluted into once upon every three months, with a hello and a witty comment but I could never say anything witty back

But you were always good at small talk

Remember when I kissed you out of curiousity instead of feelings and you were so happy it scared me and I ignored your texts for a week

But you were always good at forgiveness

Remember when we didn’t talk all summer and you showed up to my house and you had too much alcohol, so you passed out and hit your head

The ambulance came and I didn't know how to stay mad at you after that

But you were always good at coming back

Remember when you finally found another girl and texted me about it and I was relieved

But I was never good at sharing

And you were always good with moving on

And I was always good at disappointment

And I can’t write but when I do it’s about you, and I still have your voicemail wishing me good luck on a job I ended up getting

I know I have our pictures stored away somewhere on my computer under a file called Don't.

Remember I told you I can't make up my mind and I never know what I want.

But you were a better person than me.

And even after all that you still can make me laugh.

And you were always better at laughing than me.