The World Today

I went out into the world today with so much motivation to see all the people and do all the things. I sat alone among a sea of beautiful people who looked as if they had all walked off of my Pinterest page, so perfectly polished. Not only am I intimidated by their appearance, they are all seemingly successful. Corporate jobs, saving lives, knee deep in important projects. And I’m just there watching it all, intrigued by it all. But how do I fit in here? Never one to shy away from getting to know anyone, I’m always quick to engage. Yet, somehow, I don’t feel quite accepted. I feel as if my presence is merely being tolerated. After all, they all have places to go and things to do that are far more important than talking to me. Who am I anyway? I have no real position, no color of collar the world can use to further determine my worth. I have no real niche in life. As I wrap up another conversation where I’m honest and forthcoming about my true self, I can see it is not well-received. So, I bottle it up.

I stayed home from the world today.