Behind the mind.

Hi my name is kay Lynn Bear. Yes I know my name is not the best, unfortunately neither is my life . If you don't like long , heartbreaking , soul stirring stories you night want to leave now.

I was born June 11 1997. It was a Sunny day with a light salty brae's the lower bay. My now mom Carly was there . Well so was my bio mom, but she had and probably still has drug issues . That is the main reason I never really had a relation ship with her, I wasn't her first kid I was the 5th and she lost custody of all of us. I was and am the only girl. Penny ever had. Oh penny is my bio mothers name. I was lucky Enough to be adopted in to my own family . Carly is biologically my second have cousin , and she all so adopted two of my four brothers. Daniel and Wayne.

I grew up with these two crazy boys along with my sister jewel who is a year and half older than I . I know this doesn't seem to be so heart breaking yet ,but just wait. Everything seemed really good or at least normal . Are family a little happy family with 7 kids and Carly and Allen . My mom and her now ex. I edomite that sometimes I miss the old days. Everything was so perfect I never really felt hurt or lost or scared until around seven. I noticed Allen started acting different . Spending a lot my time in the storage room. That he had set up as a darts and smoking room. By the age nine mom and Allen started fighting all the time.

I can remember and completely feel the heart break of my perfect lil family falling apart as the screamed and cursed and broke things . Night after night it went on . Finally I was told the most dreaded thought I had was coming true. They are getting divorced. This broke my heart . From that point my hole perspective on my life my family and the world around me changed . Now at the age 17 I am here telling parts of my story . Unsure of anything. I don't know what to trust or believe I have come to realize we don't have or own personalities we. Have the ones the world has given us. We all fake it to try and make it half the time if not more. .