RIP
The funeral
I recently attended
Filled me with so much emotion
It seems like yesterday
Everything was fine
I tend to forget that life
Can change in a moment
Choices we make have
A butterfly effect
A pebble being dropped
Into a calm lake
Creates ripples that eventually
Reach the shore
The service was small
Close family and friends
Overall the feeling
Of interactions between guests
Was slightly awkward
I sat in the very last row
Trying to pay my respects
Without being noticed
I’m not quite sure
How I feel about
The sudden loss
It could of been prevented
Proper preparation
Prevents poor performance
For now I’m choosing
To stifle the pain
It’s just me
Myself and I
I can’t rely on anyone
To be there
Nor can I openly share
Without fear of rejection
Plus I’m angry
Why be so selfish?
To a selfless person
It’s a hard thing to grasp
I can’t wrap my brain
Around the behaviors
Of other people
Even if I perceive there feelings
The way I do
It still always shocks me
Nothing can truly prepare you
When it was time to say goodbye
I walked slowly towards the casket
Dragging my feet
This is the part that’s never easy
Good byes are the hardest
I feel like a little kid
So small and vulnerable
No matter what
I have to be okay
Reaching the casket
I look down
To see my relationship staring
Back at me