it has to happen sometime

You are laying in a hospital bed right now, ICU, DNR orders; the works.

I don't think that I could ever explain the impact that you had on my life.

Your faith, your love, your kindness, your positivity

your unwaivering positivity.

I often write about you, I love you. But only just now am I realizing how important you actually are.

I cherish you and your memory, you are an inextricable aspect of my being; bound within my soul as the catalyst for all good things.

I think that to lose you would mean to die.

This is selfish, you're tired and in pain but I cannot bear the thought.

I'm sorry we didn't spend more time together

I'm sorry I couldn't show you how much you matter

I'm sorry it's now and not before

above all I'm sorry that you are in pain.

I want that to end for you, no matter what it takes.

I love you.