If but to say anything...sensibly

Hello

In my mind mouthed a million times

Only coming out once perfected

Comes out with but reverb, a curse, knowing I'm uncomfortable

Inverse, reverse, everything but getting to converse

where did this sneak it's way in?

I'm so distracted by everything that I can't speak

just one word

that you heard

yet it's not happening

it's too simple can't I do this without liquid encouragement?

Hold on, don't turn away

don't you have forever to wait?

if only but to make me entertained?

of course not, so I force what, seemed masterfully contained

"Hi, My name's such and such, and I've seen you around,

can you tell me what you do in this beaten-dead horse town?"

Your face lights, as though it believed that I might be dead

brought back to life?

and to which you reply

"Nothing out of the ordinary, just try to talk about what's going on in the world! Well, if it's not too scary, and sometimes I manage to go to shows,

well you know when I've managed to acquire some payroll!"

So in rebuttal, from one mind to another I can only jokingly tease

"Aren't the best things in life free? Haven't you heard of pirating your music, I'm sure you're a regular Matey!" and again you laugh, at such poor and crass

attempt at humor, but it begins to put me in a stupor, things are going well!

"Typically I try to be so forthcoming, but it appears as though you know a backstory running! I go to the shows much like some go to church: to pay tribute to those that I have been shaken by, and to indicate that beyond thought that they've merited the upmost worth!"

stunned and shocked, I probably stare too long, but are you Jesus come again? showing us that there's hope for even the lowliest of men?

Are you telling me that you suffer for a greater good ?

Are you just a force to be reckoned with that I've misunderstood?

"Sorry to stare, there's just not many of your kind, same approach surely, but nowhere near the state of mind. What's your name again and from where do you hail? Surely the loveliest of yacht's brought you here by the simple power of it's sails. So foreign and imported, I just want to bring it to scale!"

"Well to take the kaleidoscope out of your eyes, it sounds maybe you're feeding my ears lies, but I'm born and raised from lands nearby. If we've met before, how can there be so much void? When I'm around do you find yourself annoyed? Do us both a favor and let's continue our conversation over food and white noise."

The alarm clock goes off and I remember, man I speak better than that, but that got me a date that I couldn't land with what I know....fer fuck's sake.