As The Children Sleep
Make no mistake, Eros, you call to us all. See
how the father curls anguished in that
sweaty comforter, twisting
in that unfulfilled gnawing -- that slight glimpse
of pale flesh, as the cashier bends to grab
a paper bag, the soft curve of lashes,
lifting from the green eyes
of the substitute teacher. But see, the mother too
curls away, gnawing restless
in her own secret - how that gentle face
hungrily devoured the entirety
of her aging form, how that worn T-shirt
stretched across his taut frame, his wet mouth - open,
bending to meet her trembling lips. Yes Eros,
you claw at the heart, always beyond the horizon, just
past this one next ridge. And what will become
of this ordinary couple; each curled
away from the other, clinging
to their secrets, gasping for one
last breath, that vague sense of the immortal? Who can say?
But love, true love lies waiting -
that heroic search, that epic quest -- not
some quest in search for some new someone, some
colorful present waiting, wrapped beneath some tree. No.
True love is the truly great quest, not a search for the other, but with
the other. Together we search
the depths of ourselves, troweling beneath
the crust, the stacks of dishes
and missed appointments,
even the terrifying realization of just how full
of shit I truly am. But there,
like a tiny leak, a quiet dripping,
trickling from the dense cement
of the heart, it lives.
Can you feel it? That impossible tenderness,
as he turns to her, and she to him and they embrace, and
once more merge, filling themselves with each other
like human beings. Can you hear them as they
cry in the darkness? “Oh, my sweet
love, how I missed you.”