Lonely

Loneliness is the color of the ocean, a deep, sad blue, gnawing at you from the inside like a virus you can do nothing to stop until it consumes you whole. You think you’ve escaped, found some real friends, but in the end, it’s always there, a twinge in the back of your mind. Loneliness is when no one understands you, when no one cares, nobody to relate to you, when you stand among so many people yet none of them truly get it. It’s when all anyone can focus on is their own problems, how they forget you and say your issues are small in comparison, thus not worth the time to fix, because nothing can fix you, to them you are nothing, nothing but a loser who deserves what she got. You want desperately to join those people who keep rejecting you, but maybe it's your pride holding you back, because you know that regardless of what you do, trying to fit in is fighting an uphill battle that will always end with you alone.