One True Friend

Dear Me,

I am very sorry I made the decision to ghost my one true friend. It was not her that I wanted to get away from but the toxicity of someone she was closely associated with. Cutting her out of my life was not the right decision in the long run, but I did it for my own sanity during that difficult time. I know that as much as I will always care for her, there would be the shadow of her friendship with that other person who was and still is constantly trying to destroy me and everything that I care about. Due to this closeness, I would always wonder if she was discussing me with her, intentionally or not, providing more ammunition. I will always wish that I had the courage to explain this face to face. Instead, I pushed her away and said hurtful things that I will always regret. However, at the time, I had to put myself first and my need to disassociate from the drama. There is a lot that I wish I had done differently so that the friendship could be salvaged. She did not do anything wrong and was never the one I wanted to hurt. But, as others have suggested, it is time for me to move on, accept what happened, forgive myself, and treat current and future friends differently in the future. It's time to put the friendship in the past and realize that some things cannot be undone.

Love,

Myself