Panic attack

As the hourglass flips,

The world swirls before me just like the sand in the glass.

I hear the door close behind me and I know now what was going to happen.

I feel my heartbeat growing louder in my fingertips and my body shudder.I don't know what this is, but I know there is something terribly wrong with me for sure.

I can hear the silence speaking to me.

Endless noises screaming around me and in my head telling me , you are going to die. Telling me you are pointless. Telling me you are careless, world hates you. Telling me you are not needed

So,DIE.

Choking on my breath, I feel my room whirl around me. The wind rattles the dream catcher in my room and its chimes reverberate the entire house except me.

All I think is what if you see a black shadow in corner of room? What if you hallucinate? I know this is not true but what if? You are biologically predisposed of a mental illness and no one is saving you from that!! What if they call you crazy? What if they isolate you?

What if you die?

You should die.

Shiver creeps down my spine as static in my ears grows louder and louder.

Curling into myself, i tell my mind SHUT UP!!

It doesn't.

And then I hear footsteps coming closer

and closer.The door opens and everyone's home. I don't feel it anymore but I know it will be back haunting me again when I'm alone.

I hope it doesn't kill me.

I hope it just stops.