Forgotten

Forgot my roots, left my boots to dust

Armored my heart, laced my nikes up

Covered scars in tattoos; iced over love

Lowered my bar became like my blood

Said after years of pain I wanted numb

Give me drugs, drink till I’m dumb

Didn’t know that I’d never have enough

Or I did, figured it was just who I was

Genetics deciding disguised as free will

Kicked hope and dreams for the thrill

Did surgery on my heart took all the pills

Flipped over cards, they wished me ill

Bet all I owned on I’d never really care

Forgot to build a house, a fuck or a bear

Climbed the bottom to end up there

Innocence is brief, that thief really cares

Drills in young that life’s never fair

Killed the boy in me now the man stares

In the mirror looking closer for a sign

That who he was is still somehow alive

Reaching out defying space and time

Preaching to me about the devine

Wearing holy jeans, see it in my eyes

Never been a saint or a lucky guy

Love has overdosed me blind

I’m ignoring signs drinking on my side

Forgot last night, yesterday, last year

Woke up sober enough to face my fears

Choked on sorry, a curse to your ear

Floating along hoping you draw near

Boasting on about how I never cared

Has left me alone with liquor clear

Vodka on the rocks, quarter filled sock

Straight to the head like skipping rocks

Killing who I was, 100 proof tonic

Can I have a second ’fore I’m the target

I tried my best, less if I’m honest

Fear ruled daily wound that’s the rawest

Barely holding on wishing you saw this

Forgotten is better than never regarded