Terrible
I’m a terrible human being
...
My biggest goal is to defile you
To the point that no matter how hard you scrub your skin, the parts I’ve laid my hands on sting the most
Smoldering fever pitch to make you shiver in your bathtub
To the point that when you go to bed at night, you’ll be rolling around at 3AM aching for my presence
Go ahead, bite your pillow in frustration— I’ll turn you into an insomniac
To the point that when something reminds you of the slightest bit of me, you won’t be able to handle it
You’ll have me on speed dial begging for me to sprint over, crawl if I have to
Don’t make me laugh
Just your hands won’t be enough
Nothing else will be
Will you be able to eat properly? Think properly? Live properly?
I’m a terrible human being
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But you, you’re worse than me
Because you think what I’m doing isn’t disgusting
Because you keep showing up after pushing me away
Because you left your spare key on my bed
Because you’re a professional liar
Because you want to do the same
Because when I pretend to be asleep, I hear your little whispers
Because when you think I’m not looking, I see your little grin
Because you let me
Because
You want me to do these things to you
And more
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You left the rules blank on purpose
I’m only playing along in your perverse game
You thought you had the upper hand
But it’s obvious there’s no winner
Since neither of us are going anywhere
...
After all, we’re terrible human beings