Running Through Life
I was once walking,
Calm as a still summer night with chirping crickets
Content as a purring cat curled up beside a fireplace
Innocent as a baby bird before ever taking flight
Radiant as the moon adding light to a dark world
Now I am running,
Unclear of a direction
Frightened to look behind
Yet petrified to look ahead
Maybe if I close my eyes, the ground will stand still
If I could only catch my breath for an instant
Ever since the snow, I quickened my pace
Suffocating with a smile plastered on my face
Heart pounding even when fast asleep
Dizzy and sweating,
Yet my toes are ice cold
Running from the past because the memories are too vivid
Just a reminder of what I have lost
I miss the simple days,
The days of playgrounds and sprinklers and ice cream trucks
The nights of movies and sleepovers and star gazing
I miss his voice and his hugs and his humour
Memories that can never be recreated because he is gone
Why remember the time when smiles were more common than cries?
So I forgot for the moment
I wonder if I will ever remember again
If I will ever want to remember
Running through life,
Letting moments of happiness and achievement pass me by
My eyes dart from place to place
I twist the ring on my finger as my mind spins
Focus lost, only confusion remains
How will I live without him by my side?
Running ahead and never turning my head
I will need a break from it all soon
Trying to slow down,
Learning to catch my breath and feel in control again
Hoping for a future filled with unwavered joy
Even without him, I pray for my success
I see him but he’s too far to reach
Patience will guide me through the years,
and comfort me through the days
But
I will
Get
To
Him
Faster
By
Ru n n i n g