Sorting through my tears

Because I realized just how much I don't open up about my feelings how I feel like my problems are burdensome on top of others problems. Because I let my daughter see me cry this morning and I let her wipe my tears and she's only 1 she helped me when I couldn't help myself and I let her because I song give myself enough credit for just how tough I am. She said “Dont cry with a mouth full of chips” and continued to wipe until all the tears we're on that crumpled tissue and she fed me chips while I write this.

What I'm trying to say is I haven't fully been appreciative of all the blessings and people around me instead I've blamed and been childish towards them because I guess that's all I know. I never knew how go be out going and not pretend I didn't feel awkward in the room when ever strangers surrounded me. I never actually sat down to analyze how vulnerable I could never be because I was protecting myself for judgment and thinning I was weak because I finally opened up and had to explain why I felt this way and not feel like a baby or a whiner. I need to cry more to others though and open up and be vulnerable I need to stop using I so much.