A letter to my middle school self,

Hi, its you from the future and i just wanna start this off by saying I Love you. I love you so damn much. And i know it hurts, i know your still trying to get control of your own body and it sucks. I know it sucks to be told "you're not depressed" by what you thought was one of your closest friends. And im here to tell you its okay. Its okay to be emotional, feel as much ass you can because as you grow older you become empty. So, empty and wanting to please other people so they can fill that hole in your heart. You may not feel it immediatly because right now your trying so hard not to feel but let it out, okay. Right now im numb but my chest always hurts and any little thing makes me want to cry. Yes, i kept the grey hair our parents gave us and yes if your wondering the anger of everything is still there. i may be empty but im always angry and it sucks. Convience ma to take you too a therapist no matter how long it takes get help please, you think you dint need it and you can take everything on your own but if not for your sake for mine, please get help. You're not getting it right now and no one is listening to you and your "friends" didnt care when you almost killed yourself but you stayed up night after night talking them off ledges its okay. I Love You, okay? you may not love yourself now But I Love You, I Love all 171 pounds and 5'11" inches of you. Stop hurting yourself, I Love You.I know your still crying yourself to sleep And thats okay it takes time , I Love you. You may not feel it from anyone else but know, I hear you, i understand you, and I LOVE YOU!

sincerly, 12th Grade you.