Dear Preteen Me,

I know you think Mom knows everything. But when she looked at you at 12 years old and subtly suggested, subtly because, after all she wanted to be better than her mother, who would have blurted, “You look fat. You’d better do something about it,” that losing a few pounds wouldn’t hurt. Your body was changing, in a couple of months you’ll get your first period. Bodies change during this whole development process. If you eat healthy and move around, eventually, your weight will settle. There is no need to starve yourself, no need to binge on your favorite treats when nobody is home to judge you, no need to eventually graduate to buying diet shakes or subject yourself to periods of fasting. Eat when you’re hungry, feel free to get a snack when you’re hanging out with friends instead of depriving yourself. Just be mindful of your natural cues and you’ll be fine. Don’t go on that diet and save yourself a lifetime of problems with food. Mom is wrong about this.

Love,

40 Something Year Old Me

I am glad you are here child. I know how you feel about naps you don't want to take. I know you cannot wait to start school like your brother and sister have.

You are blessed to have loving parents, traveling and music in your life.

You will grow up and face many good and bad times.

Spoiler Alert: You will be a leader. You will gradually gain your confidence.

You will influence others with and without words.

You would not believe all that you will accomplish if I were to tell you about them now.

Keep that honest disposition.

Stay motivated to do well in all your schoolwork.

I will not ask you to make any decisions differently, because if you did, I would not be all that I am. I love you!

Dear twelve year old ‘me’,

How are you? Long time no see- oh! I don’t have much time...

Just listen.. Always be strong.. Always. Make yourself tough.

And you know what? If you try you can be better than the best.. Believe me.

Please improve your math skills by understanding and not mugging up. And.. Another thing.. Please don’t trust blindly. No one.

And.... Don’t ape others. Build your own individuality, dear... You will love it in future, believe me again.

Bye.. See you later though!

Forever yours,

The present ‘me’.....

P.S. I will always love you...

You were a little shit...

You could have used the ability to let go of things because you were a petty little shit. Grow up you aren’t smarter than anyone because you don’t like someone who is well-liked. I know you were lonely and just wanted friends and didn’t want people to hate you. You were a know it all who was also just a kid. You were nine and because of this, I’ll just tell you that I wish I had been as mature at school that I was at home.

Maddie was cute and popular and if I could go back in time I would have been nicer to her. Kayla was your friend and I’m glad you did right by her and you were a good friend.

You become a better person ish...and you hate yourself more now than you did then.

-Present Me.

You're a bitch. You already know this, but you actually suck. You have no right to be as mean as you are. You're self-loathing memes aren't funny they're hurtful. All of your other memes though, those are amazing. Don't listen to the people that think otherwise, you're doing your best. Stop acting like a frickin adult by the way, it's not gonna help you. Cut the toxic people out of your life and go mountain climbing with a red headed love interest.

Hi, its you from the future and i just wanna start this off by saying I Love you. I love you so damn much. And i know it hurts, i know your still trying to get control of your own body and it sucks. I know it sucks to be told "you're not depressed" by what you thought was one of your closest friends. And im here to tell you its okay. Its okay to be emotional, feel as much ass you can because as you grow older you become empty. So, empty and wanting to please other people so they can fill that hole in your heart. You may not feel it immediatly because right now your trying so hard not to feel but let it out, okay. Right now im numb but my chest always hurts and any little thing makes me want to cry. Yes, i kept the grey hair our parents gave us and yes if your wondering the anger of everything is still there. i may be empty but im always angry and it sucks. Convience ma to take you too a therapist no matter how long it takes get help please, you think you dint need it and you can take everything on your own but if not for your sake for mine, please get help. You're not getting it right now and no one is listening to you and your "friends" didnt care when you almost killed yourself but you stayed up night after night talking them off ledges its okay. I Love You, okay? you may not love yourself now But I Love You, I Love all 171 pounds and 5'11" inches of you. Stop hurting yourself, I Love You.I know your still crying yourself to sleep And thats okay it takes time , I Love you. You may not feel it from anyone else but know, I hear you, i understand you, and I LOVE YOU!

sincerly, 12th Grade you.