ramblings

i am drowning

not the way youd expect

you think that i fall prey to peer pressure

well youre in for quite the shock

you say i follow the crowd

and that they are the bad influence on me

but youre neglecting to aknowledge

the lasting effect that

you

had on me.

dont think i blame you

i dont have it in me to blame

and to me even hate is overrated

or rather its quite overly exhausting

so fear not

i dont hate you for making me

so empty

infact

thank you

now i can live my life

without a hint of envy

as i simply couldnt care less

about anything

you broke me

down to the bone

and when i healed

myself

its like the old me

just disappeared

thank you

so very fucking much