I Miss You, Daddy.

She was named after her mother you know; she could remember her perfume. she smelled like vanilla and chocolate. her father kicked her mother out because he wanted her for his own. why? because he was a jealous person.

her name was Emila Carmella Elivite. she has the exact same name as her mother. she looked the same as her mother other than her hazel eyes that she got from her Father.

she walked home on a rainy day. the rain pounding down on her black hoodie, she walked to her one-story house she shared with her father. but red and blue lights made her heart stop. she kept walking, until she was running down the street to her house to check if her dad was okay. but they were at her house, carrying out a gurney with a body on it.

"DAD, DAD" she screamed, running towards the gurney, a police officer held her back whispering that she was sorry, but her dad killed himself. she broke free of her arms and ran inside into her own room. where a rope was hanging and a sealed note with her name on it laid neatly on her bed. she inched over to it hiccupping through her tears.

Emila,

I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done to you, I was a horrible father. I kicked your mother out because you looked exactly like her. nothing likes me. but after you turned one-year old I noticed you had my eyes. I hated myself because you had to grow up without a mother, I kicked her out in pure jealousy, not thinking of the little girl that would need her as she grew. I’m sorry for my uncontrollable drinking. today is my 3rd sober day in years! but I’ve come to realize it needs to be my last. I always told you hateful things while intoxicated. I’ve hit you and I’m sorry for that. but I know that no sorry can ever redeem the fact the I hurt you, that I put bruises on you stemmed from my own hatred. I haven't left you alone. I’ve called your mother. she's coming to get you as you read this. you can finally meet her. please don't hate her my beautiful daughter. I’ve done this to atone for my sins. you know I don't believe in god, but I have truly sinned. I have hit you, and left bruises on your beautiful face. I have used you for money when I couldn't get a job. I’m sorry. I know you hate me, but I hope that one day you can truly forgive me and love me for the restored man I am becoming in heaven. I’ll come back to you when the time is right my sweet girl. but in the time no more cutting, please eat. become the best you can be, for me. as my last wish. forget everything I’ve ever told you and be the girl you were always meant to be. I love you Emilia Carmella Elivete.

love, Your father.

she never hated him, ever. no matter what he did she couldn't hate him. she knew he hated himself and he took it out on her. the familiar scent of Vanilla and Chocolate wafted into her nose. a gut-wrenching sob fell from her lips. she turned around and ran into the arms of her mother. who held her for the first time in years?

"you look absolutely beautiful my sweet girl" A soft voice whispered in her ear

gut wrenching sobs fell from her lips. she hugged her tighter.

she had her mom, but in the process, she lost her daddy, the only man who would ever love her the way a father could.

2 years later she stood at her father gravestone with her mother behind her she kissed her fingers and pressed them to the stone and muttered 14 words.

"I Miss you, Daddy, I can't forgive you yet, but i'll always love you."