Only for today

Today is one of those day where everything just pulls you down.

the day doesn't go the way you expect it.

you meet someone but you can express yourself.

you feel mellow inside and cant explain why.

all you can say for sure is somethings missing.

You drive your car and just want to keep driving

Because you hope the songs will answer this feeling.

its only today, and its okay.

I get home and i ask why? what can i do to about this feeling inside.

The sadness has this lull that i can't escape.

i switch off the light and lie on my bed.

seeing the world of my memories.

poking at everything that makes me sad.

I'm missing something and i can't explian why.

I want to feel the absolute low to figure it out.

My darkness reveals the scars,

My sadness touches the heart.

And my tears tell me im human.

it all comes back.....

i find myself transported in time

repeating this story in my mind.

"one day i will reach that place.

A happiness so great that i will be willing to forgive myself

for going through that place."

Today i just want to feel a bit more of this sadness inside.

its a world real to me albeit imaginary.

But right now the only place i can see my dreams come alive.

the one that tells me i'll be meeting her someday.

that i am the person i wish to become.

Now i can see her in my arm, it is a pleasure to be around her.

her smile, her skin, the sunlight and the wind.

This sensation that i feel inside.

I have yet to find her in real life.

The one whom i am already in love.

And i dont want to leave now.

The stubborness of the kid inside

i guess this is what heaven must be like.

You dream something and it comes alive

its only today and its okay....

Cuz you need this day. One day it will all make sense when you reach that place.

working everyday doing the grind.

I forgot there was a human inside.

the reason for my why.

i needed today to see my true self .

Its been a long time since i felt myself inside.

Tomorrow i'll be prepared.

And the day after i will hope to meet her.

but for now i just got to keep patient.

work on being the best i can be.

the best story i can make of my life.